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Dear Friends: I know that this is a small thing, but I feel the need to gripe about it to somebody. My knitting ability is fading fast, and it makes me so sad and frustrated! I am trying very hard to get used to this PD thing, and the loss of myself, little by little, but this is the (new) last straw! I am a happy knitter---or was, and enjoyed making hats for the preschool children and kindergartners I volunteer with. I love to make doll clothes for my granddaughter, the occasional sweater for a family member, baby blankets for the perinatal loss program at one of the bigger hospitals in our state. But now I find I cannot keep the stitches on the needle. Can not count the rows. Cannot make sense of the pattern. I drop stitches, can't pick them up again, and end up starting little things over and over again. Knitting was something that I could do with my hands while the rest of life was happening, and something that was appreciated by people who don't understand how easy it is. But no more! I have posted before about that feeling that my brain is leaking out and going away, and I follow the posts on this board to get insights from those of you who are more experienced with PD than I am. But the KNITTING! Is nothing to remain? Am I going to sit in a chair and drool and not be able to do anything for anybody and how long before that happens, and how long does it last before I am no more? In the great scheme of things, I know knitting is not all that important, but it seems as if there soon will be none of me left. Thanks for letting me vent. Has anyone else lost a hobby or skill that you once enjoyed, and how have you coped? Swamper