It's now more than 2 years later from when I started this thread and things have gotten worse. As the year ends I reflect and say this has been a crappy year and I'm glad it's ending. Well.. I say that every year because I have very little to be thankful for. Why does life have to be so hard? People who have it all just keep thriving while the rest of us struggle. I can count at least 5 ex CG's from this forum that have lost their loved ones and it really saddens me. I re-read some of the previous posts as if it was just yesterday and can't believe how life has changed.